My Mental Feed

An overview of the mental health reels and a QR Code to the home of more videos.

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"Today I missed Class, I am mad that I did. I had a mental breakdown and feel like the education system making me prove my mental health issues has failed me."

"I hate exposing my emotions like this, I feel like it’s not something the world needs to see and I am contemplating my artistic practice. How the hell am I doing this and is it what I really want to do."

"Today I have to go to work and got an extension on an assignment. I can’t focus. I quit an addiction yesterday. No more gaming for me I replaced it with coffee and I need my sleeping schedule back. I genuinely get anxious about my product of art."

"I have been working on the same paper for 8-9 hours. Why did I forget half of my studies, why can’t I comprehend it? How the hell am I supposed to make a product if all the time to make it is spent understanding the context."

"Creating art is so demanding, my expectation of product versus what I produce can be overwhelming."

"I should really be asleep right now. Instead I feel obligated to do school work / art."

"I can’t sleep these days. There’s so much going on inside my head and I just don’t let myself. I think about what I have to do and what pressures I have and it’s quite a bit."

"I cleaned my depression room, and that really took a lot out of me. I still have a million and one lists of things on my mind, but I am not sure how this will all play out. Sometimes one task can take so much out of a persons agenda. It is tiring to do small things sometimes."

"Today I am feeling very sick and I have been struggling to even keep up. Yesterday I missed my therapy appointment and today I have a headache and won’t do anything but stay in bed. It’s life right? I just feel unproductive."

"These past few weeks I have accomplished minimal things. My mental health has been down lately. I had a traumatic couple of weeks. Watching the person I care about go through so much and not being able to focus or catch up. Scared about my future and nervous. I haven’t slept and I am really struggling."

I wasn’t committed to my own craft and lately I’ve felt a little unwanted. I know that I suck at journaling and college is hard. Lately I’ve been stressed about my finances and the people in my life. Completing work and feeling a sense of support. I truly got depressed. I let what I love to do go under the radar. It’s hard to make art when it’s hard to keep up.

Today I stressed about getting stuff done in time. I got called into work and really struggled because I’m falling behind and I have a few days until All of my assignments are due. I have a lot on my plate and being consistent hasn’t been easy with me not keeping track of the days, but I’ve been a little bit less depressed lately.

Now that I’m unoccupied I feel anxious. I’m sad with social things going on in my life and reflecting on them makes me feel lonely. I sure hope others don’t feel the way I do sometimes.

I have been so out of touch with documenting my mental health. It’s about to be the start of the semester and I’m looking around at my room that I tried to fix. Suffering with the apartment raising rent I am living differently. I am a bit shaken looking at the time. I see so much and yet not enough, I am fighting these thoughts and talking with my therapist. I was depressed for two months straight.

Where do I start I wanted to go back to June, I had my roommates move out. I cleaned the whole apartment without acknowledging my malnutrition, getting ready for school and working the only days I can with my health was rough. I kept track of the days the best I could..I was hospitalized, 3 times in the course of two months, and didn’t keep track of days I broke out into hives after not holding down any food. It’s like it all got put on halt. I came back from the hospital and the new semester starts tomorrow.

"Pacing, a new therapist, highs and lows. Distractions, extensions, feelings of doubt. This is my mind with ADHD, OCD, work and school. I do twice the work it takes to comprehend things and lately I’ve been feeling the pressure. I am different in the sense that I used to operate so normal but it’s different being neurodivergent.I feel like lately It’s been a lot of deadlines and I have been having a hard time getting into the grove of things. I’m questioning myself and trying to stay organized. It hasn’t all entirely been bad but in a sense it is lonely and tiring. Noticing my mind work different and people not see me when it used to not be so bad is something no one else deserves to feel. I am a bit optimistic that I’ll make it through though."

"Today I went from being productive and going through nostalgic family photos for a class. To the feeling of being purely overwhelmed and triggered. I felt a tremendous weight on myself and I started to think about how this semester is piling up. It is stressful, sometimes I feel like a lot of my life is just piling up at once. I look around me and I could fix one area just to have another one shatter and it’s a lot to cope with. It will get better these days I am reminding myself to breathe. School is not for the weak and mental health doesn’t have an expectation to hold it together all the time. It’s okay to make mistakes, fall behind and get back up. it’s not even the subject matter it’s the fact that sometimes everything feels like it’s piling and it’s a lot to deal with daily. It isn’t easy to get up and do the hard things it is a strength. Sometimes though it is normal to get weak."

"Today ended rough, I had the heaviest anxiety in classes facing my peers. I didn’t want to make eye contact, I felt overwhelming and too much for others. My head was pulsing physically from a headache vigorously and I felt annoying to people. I stepped out from classes with a major headache. I feel a bit stressed about finances, completing things, purpose, and in general about what I am creating. Sometimes I want to hide and sleep and recharge and just be away from all of this. I trust that it will be okay but the lights flashing and everything was a bit too overwhelming today.I don’t want people to feel sympathy for my disability but if only people truly understood that because of my disability, certain things about myself are the way that they are it may help me feel a bit more seen. I guess it felt polarizing in that way too, I got a wave of sadness. It is hard sometimes to deal with feeling so different."

Daily/Weekly/Monthly Snapshots of mental health with subjects including but not limited to: Chloé's Apartment, Accomplishment, Calendar photos, Life Events, Stills of Reels on Instagram. 

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A double exposure video showcasing time blindness.

"I have been so out of touch with documenting my mental health. It’s about to be the start of the semester and I’m looking around at my room that I tried to fix. Suffering with the apartment raising rent I am living differently. I am a bit shaken looking at the time. I see so much and yet not enough, I am fighting these thoughts and talking with my therapist. I was depressed for two months straight."

Credit to FLEXXONE Beats•Sigma

A video of multiple heads spinning, representing overthinking.

"Creating art is so demanding, my expectation of product versus what I produce can be overwhelming."

Credit to .diedlonely•analogue winter

"Depression. I am truly feeling everything all at once, like I am a failure, like I am letting myself and others down, like I need to figure everything else out but all my hard work feels like it’s for nothing. I feel like school is piling up too and I am just depressed."

"Depression. I am truly feeling everything all at once, like I am a failure, like I am letting myself and others down, like I need to figure everything else out but all my hard work feels like it’s for nothing. I feel like school is piling up too and I am just depressed. yesterday in class I butchered a presentation with anxiety, I felt like I was choking on my own words and I just didn’t want to face that"

Credit to Flawed Mangoes The Beginning

3D Object of Polaroid Scans, Layered with double exposure Video Collage

3D Object of Polaroid Scans, Layered with double exposure Video Collage

3D Object of Polaroid Scans, Layered with double exposure Video Collage

3D Object of Polaroid Scans, Layered with double exposure Video Collage

3D Object of Polaroid Scans, Layered with double exposure Video Collage

3D Object of Polaroid Scans, Layered with double exposure Video Collage